Games
It is so much easier to play games than it is to write. I can spend unlimited hours playing against an opponent half the way around the world in online Go (also called Baduk in Korea and Weiqi in China) but sitting down and writing down my thoughts, or to work on my novel, these this takes a goal oriented motivation that I find so difficult to summon some times.I received an email today from one of my oldest and best friends, it was short but to the point and he raised several issues regarding his feelings and our relationship. We have been buddies forever, and will be I hope until one of us is cold in his grave.
I think as we grow older is it harder to take people for granted. When you are young and beautiful and outgoing, people seem to be everywhere offering you their time and affection, and perhaps as we grow older we must face certain things, that we are mortal, that our lives are short, and that who we choose to spend our time with is really the ultimate power that we have in our lives. I struggle with the fact that I am so far away from most of the people that I love. My family is in Minnesota, so far from this craptastic eastern city of Philadelphia, but still here I am, while my nephews and nieces grow up and make their way out into the world. My parents grow older without me and one day I won't have the option of visiting them... Here I sit, playing Go and feeling nostalgic about a life I used to share with so many people that I love.
Fire up the virtual Goban. Find me playing in the English room of the Kiseido Go Server as "John Brian."
JB aka JayBee created this post at 8:20 PM.
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